"What if theres a bigger picture, what if Im missing out? What if theres a greater purpose that I could be living right now outside my own little world?"
Lyrics from a Matthew West song titled "My Own Little World"
Lyrics from a Matthew West song titled "My Own Little World"
I love this song for many reasons but mainly for the lyrics and what they say to me. Its been on my heart since I was young that there was a purpose for me, something that I could do in this world that would seem very small and insignificant in the grand view of it all, but something that would MEAN something.
Since then I have done quite a bit with my life, Ive gone to Haiti to witness to people for Christ and build them a water purification system, Ive started a family, Ive suffered losses in said family, and a myriad of other small and rather insignificant things that build a life.. and yet I find myself feeling completely and utterly unaccomplished..
Dont get me wrong.. I have dreams.. and I have things that have been on my heart..
My heart has always been with children, I hope that my dream is in my future. My dream being that I can be a foster home that takes care of those children (ages 6 to 17) that feel neglected and feel like no one wants them simply because they arent less than a year old. Its always been on my heart to be the kind of person that these kids can come to and be treated like they matter. I know its going to be very hard if this dream ever comes to fruition but if it does I intend to be older and have all my own children grown and out of the house by that point.
This dream is one of those "one step at a time" things where I know it will take a lot of patience and and planning and prayer... but its also something that I dont think can be done until Im older.
... So this takes me back to feeling unaccomplished.. I feel like I havent done anything.. yet that cant be true.... can it? Or am I being very selfish and looking at things